My Despair-7

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My Despair-7

By Stanman63
Thanks To JennaFL For Proofing And Nora Adrienne for editing!



Synopsis:After agreeing to postpone her vengeance, Grant's visit starts restoring her Heart that not even lawn graffiti can totally undo as a visit from an unknown friend proves.
 

 

 

From My D


My Despair-7

By Stanman63
Thanks To JennaFL For Proofing And Nora Adrienne for editing!



Synopsis:After agreeing to postpone her vengeance, Grant's visit starts restoring her Heart that not even lawn graffiti can totally undo as a visit from an unknown friend proves.
 

 

 


From My Despair-6

"TERRI! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" exclaimed Daddy when he saw me loading the gun.

"Getting ready to kill them, then myself."

"DON"T! PLEASE LISTEN TO ME!"

"Speak, Daddy. But if you can't convince me to stop, I'll still do it, even if it takes a lifetime."

I have a way to stop them and their parents. Give me a chance. If I fail you, I will personally load the Winchester for you."

"Done."

 


[*][*][*]

I felt empty and alone, not even Grant's company could lighten my mood. I was listless, answering question as if I was dead. I was getting ready for bed when Grant broke through my despair and gave me a glimpse of Hope.

"Terri, I can never understand what you're going through, but I am your Knight in shining armor and I Love you."

"Grant, have you been listening to Kenny Rogers again?"

"Yes, to be able to tell you how much I Love you."

"Grsnt. Don't. I am knelt before me and played the music for not worthy of Love," I sighed.

Then he knelt and played the music for Kenny Rogers' Lady and sang to me.

Lady, I'm your knight in shining armor and I love you
You have made me what I am and I am yours
My love, there's so many ways I want to say I love you
Let me hold you in my arms forever more

You have gone and made me such a fool
I'm so lost in your love
And oh, we belong together
Won't you believe in my song

Lady, for so many years I thought I'd never find you
You have come into my life and made me whole
Forever let me wake to see you each and every morning
Let me hear you whisper softly in my ear

In my eyes I see no one else but you
There's no other love like our love
And yes, oh yes, I'll always want you near me
I've waited for you for so long

Lady, your love's the only love I need
And beside me is where I want you to be
'Cause, my love, there's somethin' I want you to know
You're the love of my life, you're my lady

As he sang, my Heart began to thaw from the most bitter of Winter of my Despair. To survive, I had stopped letting myself feel anything but despair. In my Despair, I took refuge from hurt, now Grant's Love had broken through and revealed the crumbly foundation of the Lie that I'd chosen to Live.

"Grant! How can you ever Love me? I am an abomination," I sighed.

"Terri, ever since we met, I knew that you were a girl. That is why I was your Bestest Buddy, and why you are now my fiancee," he replied as he presented me with a diamond ring which made me laugh softly.

"Are you asking for my hand in marriage?"

"Yes, with another song."

"Song?"

"Yes. If you accept my offer, you will sing with me."


Love Will Turn You Around



Kenny Rogers

You can run you can hide
never let it inside
Keep livin' your life in the dark
But sooner or later
that gentle persuader
Is gonna catch up with your heart
Make you a dreamer, believer
Believin' in love

Right when a man's
doin' all that he can
And he thinks he got
just what he needs
Life will deliver
a shock that will shiver
And drivin' him down to his knees
Make him start givin'
livin', livin' again

(chorus)
Love will turn you around, turn you around
Love will turn you around, turn you around
Turn you around

Well it's your mind
that tricks you in to
leavin' every time
Love will turn you around
turn you around
Well it's your heart
that talks you in to
stayin' where you are
Love will turn you around
turn you around

Out of the blue
she reaches for you
And you tell her
you don't have the time
So you move away fast
but you know it won't last
Cause you can't get her
off of your mind
Thoughts are burnin', turnin'
they're turning around

How do you know
when to stay or to go?
And how do you know
when it's real?
You don't need a sign
to make up your mind
When you got your heart
at the wheel
You wanna start sharin'
carin', carin' again

(chorus)

Love will turn you around, turn you around
Love will turn you around, turn you around
Turn you around

I sung the song with him as my Heart started to beat again as the ice and snow of a most bitter winter began to thaw. Now I could start seeing a world beyond my pain, and I had Grant to thank for that.

He looked at me, "Terri, I..."

"Grant, not now. Please."

After this is over," he stated.

"Yes."

"Then will we be married?"

"Yes."

Then he sang Marty Robbins' Cap And Gown.


Cap And Gown



Marty Robbins

You'll be so pretty in your cap and gown.
But I'd imagine it's a wedding gown,
On our graduation day.

On your head,
You're gonna wear a graduation ring.
But I'd imagine it's a wedding ring,
On our graduation day.

When they sing,
The alma mater,
I will sing along,
But a voice deep down inside me,
Will sing the wedding song.

I love you,
And if my graduation wish comes true,
What I imagine you'd imagine too,
On our graduation day.

When they sing,
The alma mater,
I will sing along,
But a voice deep down inside me,
Will sing the wedding song.

I love you,
And if my graduation wish comes true,
What I imagine you'd imagine too,
On our graduation day.

 


[*][*][*]

Then he went home and I had a deep, restful sleep and awoke the net morning to find that somebody had placed a sign with my picture on it, but me dressed as a maid and letting any man have me.

When Daddy saw it, he made a few calls and secured the property against invasion. But the damage was done, grant's visit was as if it had never happened.

 


[*][*][*]


I felt empty and alone. I'd given my word to Daddy and I do not go back on my word. But what am I to do now? For the rest of day, I simply lay in bed, waiting for something to happen that'd restore my Hope. What I wasn't expecting was for the mayor's secretary to come to my rescue.

I was wearing a yellow terrycloth one piece romper with white hose when I saw a new red VW Beetle pull into the driveway and a blond wearing a charcoal gray skirt suit with a hem that barely covered her essentials got out and was escorted by Mom.

Why would Mom let a woman whose skirt rides up so that you can see her undies into the house? Is she here for me? I hope that for whatever reason that she is here for, sh isn't here for Daddy. That'd be too much.

"TERRI! COME DOW< PLEASE!" shouted Daddy.

"COMING!" I replied.

That lady was sitting demurely with her legs closed, hiding her panty, "Terri, I am Daisy Mae Crawford, Mayor Anthony Thorpe's secretary."

"Is that why you wear skirts that barely cover your rear?"

"Yes, the mayor has me dress in thigh high skirt suits for office work. I could cause problems about it, but the last one who did got canned."

"Have you thought about doing something for the one who got canned?"

"Yes, I have. It was Maggie Tinsdale, a fellow Sorority Sister."

"So, you're here to honor your Pledge to a Sister," I sighed.

"Yes, Terri. We Southern Belles have always upheld the virtue of women in the home and at work. During the Revolutionary War, and World War Two, women fought as hard as the men. And during the Civil War, it was the women that stayed home to defend the land."

"Kind of like Granny and Ellie Mae Clampett of the Beverly Hillbillies," I laughed.

"Yeah, but neither of them wore a dress like this."

"You look dynamite in that charcoal gray outfit, and the cream hose, black heels and blouse are perfect."

"Yes, and if I didn't wear a matching bloomer, I'd feel exposed."

"OK, so you dress that way for the job. Is it worth it?"

"Maybe, maybe not. I'll let you decide."

"Oh?"

"Set back and listen to my tale."

 


[*][*][*]



End Of Part Seven



To Be Continued...
 

espair-6

"TERRI! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" exclaimed Daddy when he saw me loading the gun.

"Getting ready to kill them, then myself."

"DON"T! PLEASE LISTEN TO ME!"

"Speak, Daddy. But if you can't convince me to stop, I'll still do it, even if it takes a lifetime."

I have a way to stop them and their parents. Give me a chance. If I fail you, I will personally load the Winchester for you."

"Done."

 


[*][*][*]

I felt empty and alone, not even Grant's company could lighten my mood. I was listless, answering question as if I was dead. I was getting ready for bed when Grant broke through my despair and gave me a glimpse of Hope.

"Terri, I can never understand what you're going through, but I am your Knight in shining armor and I Love you."

"Grant, have you been listening to Kenny Rogers again?"

"Yes, to be able to tell you how much I Love you."

"Grsnt. Don't. I am knelt before me and played the music for not worthy of Love," I sighed.

Then he knelt and played the music for Kenny Rogers' Lady and sang to me.

Lady, I'm your knight in shining armor and I love you
You have made me what I am and I am yours
My love, there's so many ways I want to say I love you
Let me hold you in my arms forever more

You have gone and made me such a fool
I'm so lost in your love
And oh, we belong together
Won't you believe in my song

Lady, for so many years I thought I'd never find you
You have come into my life and made me whole
Forever let me wake to see you each and every morning
Let me hear you whisper softly in my ear

In my eyes I see no one else but you
There's no other love like our love
And yes, oh yes, I'll always want you near me
I've waited for you for so long

Lady, your love's the only love I need
And beside me is where I want you to be
'Cause, my love, there's somethin' I want you to know
You're the love of my life, you're my lady

As he sang, my Heart began to thaw from the most bitter of Winter of my Despair. To survive, I had stopped letting myself feel anything but despair. In my Despair, I took refuge from hurt, now Grant's Love had broken through and revealed the crumbly foundation of the Lie that I'd chosen to Live.

"Grant! How can you ever Love me? I am an abomination," I sighed.

"Terri, ever since we met, I knew that you were a girl. That is why I was your Bestest Buddy, and why you are now my fiancee," he replied as he presented me with a diamond ring which made me laugh softly.

"Are you asking for my hand in marriage?"

"Yes, with another song."

"Song?"

"Yes. If you accept my offer, you will sing with me."


Love Will Turn You Around

 


Kenny Rogers

You can run you can hide
never let it inside
Keep livin' your life in the dark
But sooner or later
that gentle persuader
Is gonna catch up with your heart
Make you a dreamer, believer
Believin' in love

Right when a man's
doin' all that he can
And he thinks he got
just what he needs
Life will deliver
a shock that will shiver
And drivin' him down to his knees
Make him start givin'
livin', livin' again

(chorus)
Love will turn you around, turn you around
Love will turn you around, turn you around
Turn you around

Well it's your mind
that tricks you in to
leavin' every time
Love will turn you around
turn you around
Well it's your heart
that talks you in to
stayin' where you are
Love will turn you around
turn you around

Out of the blue
she reaches for you
And you tell her
you don't have the time
So you move away fast
but you know it won't last
Cause you can't get her
off of your mind
Thoughts are burnin', turnin'
they're turning around

How do you know
when to stay or to go?
And how do you know
when it's real?
You don't need a sign
to make up your mind
When you got your heart
at the wheel
You wanna start sharin'
carin', carin' again

(chorus)

Love will turn you around, turn you around
Love will turn you around, turn you around
Turn you around

I sung the song with him as my Heart started to beat again as the ice and snow of a most bitter winter began to thaw. Now I could start seeing a world beyond my pain, and I had Grant to thank for that.

He looked at me, "Terri, I..."

"Grant, not now. Please."

After this is over," he stated.

"Yes."

"Then will we be married?"

"Yes."

Then he sang Marty Robbins' Cap And Gown.


Cap And Gown

 


Marty Robbins

You'll be so pretty in your cap and gown.
But I'd imagine it's a wedding gown,
On our graduation day.

On your head,
You're gonna wear a graduation ring.
But I'd imagine it's a wedding ring,
On our graduation day.

When they sing,
The alma mater,
I will sing along,
But a voice deep down inside me,
Will sing the wedding song.

I love you,
And if my graduation wish comes true,
What I imagine you'd imagine too,
On our graduation day.

When they sing,
The alma mater,
I will sing along,
But a voice deep down inside me,
Will sing the wedding song.

I love you,
And if my graduation wish comes true,
What I imagine you'd imagine too,
On our graduation day.

 


[*][*][*]

Then he went home and I had a deep, restful sleep and awoke the net morning to find that somebody had placed a sign with my picture on it, but me dressed as a maid and letting any man have me.

When Daddy saw it, he made a few calls and secured the property against invasion. But the damage was done, grant's visit was as if it had never happened.

 


[*][*][*]


I felt empty and alone. I'd given my word to Daddy and I do not go back on my word. But what am I to do now? For the rest of day, I simply lay in bed, waiting for something to happen that'd restore my Hope. What I wasn't expecting was for the mayor's secretary to come to my rescue.

I was wearing a yellow terrycloth one piece romper with white hose when I saw a new red VW Beetle pull into the driveway and a blond wearing a charcoal gray skirt suit with a hem that barely covered her essentials got out and was escorted by Mom.

Why would Mom let a woman whose skirt rides up so that you can see her undies into the house? Is she here for me? I hope that for whatever reason that she is here for, sh isn't here for Daddy. That'd be too much.

"TERRI! COME DOW< PLEASE!" shouted Daddy.

"COMING!" I replied.

That lady was sitting demurely with her legs closed, hiding her panty, "Terri, I am Daisy Mae Crawford, Mayor Anthony Thorpe's secretary."

"Is that why you wear skirts that barely cover your rear?"

"Yes, the mayor has me dress in thigh high skirt suits for office work. I could cause problems about it, but the last one who did got canned."

"Have you thought about doing something for the one who got canned?"

"Yes, I have. It was Maggie Tinsdale, a fellow Sorority Sister."

"So, you're here to honor your Pledge to a Sister," I sighed.

"Yes, Terri. We Southern Belles have always upheld the virtue of women in the home and at work. During the Revolutionary War, and World War Two, women fought as hard as the men. And during the Civil War, it was the women that stayed home to defend the land."

"Kind of like Granny and Ellie Mae Clampett of the Beverly Hillbillies," I laughed.

"Yeah, but neither of them wore a dress like this."

"You look dynamite in that charcoal gray outfit, and the cream hose, black heels and blouse are perfect."

"Yes, and if I didn't wear a matching bloomer, I'd feel exposed."

"OK, so you dress that way for the job. Is it worth it?"

"Maybe, maybe not. I'll let you decide."

"Oh?"

"Set back and listen to my tale."

 


[*][*][*]



End Of Part Seven

 

To Be Continued...